Ok so its been awhile....

Hello from the Rogers' Girls....Its been a long time since I have blogged. I am sorry I got a little side tracked with my two busy and crazy girls...lol...they are definitely busy. I really thought that I would have at least one calm child, well the joke is on me. :)

Well lets see where do I begin. I left you all off with the move. We moved here December 28th 2012 and have been living with my grandparents and mom for 6 months now, a little longer than expected. But its been good we all have had to make some sacrifices but all in all its been good. The girls are loving it probably because the great grandparents and the Tah Tah are spoiling them rotten. Anyways we been here six months, in that time Riley turned one and finally started walking or should we say running, she jabbers all the time and her favorite thing is to sing. She loves music, my Pee pa sings Amazing grace and she becomes in awe, raises her hands to praise the Lord and starts to sing along. Anytime music plays that girl stops what ever she is doing and becomes mesmerized by the music. She also loves it outside that little stinker stays out there most of the day helping nanny water the flowers or Pee pa work in the yard or whatever she can get into. Oh and her first real word has been ball. She loves to play beach balls, soccer balls, bouncy balls, softballs, hopefully this means she will be my athlete. So Riley in a nutshell is a running, jabbering, ball playing, lawn girl, kind of mess...lol. She is wonderful.

My Tess turned 4 in May she is growing up so fast. She is beautiful, smart, and head strong. She absolutely loves her little sister probably because she can make Riley do whatever she wants and or tricks her to trade toys because she wants what Riley has. She started Pre-School this spring and loved it. She had a great teacher her name was Mrs. Anna but Tess couldn't separate the words and called her Sanna. So every morning she would get excited and tell me "mommy we going to school and see Sanna!" Loved it. We also tried t-ball again this year and I think this was the last year for Tess. I helped coached her team thinking this is going to be great she is a little older this time I get to be there helping its just going to be great...well not so much. We get to the first game, well let me back up I should of known this was not going to happen when I had to fight her on putting on her uniform and instead of wearing her baseball cap she wanted a bow in her hair. See where this is going. So we get there and were walking up, all these little kids carrying there gloves and bats looking like pros and here comes Tessa with her big bow, purse, and Jesse doll. So its obvious she wants nothing to do with tball.  So she goes and sits in the stands while I continue on my mission to coach. During the game I look up to see where she is and my little princess is in the stands painting her finger nails. REALLY! So needless to say she and sports don't get along. After our tball experience I realized I needed to put her in a more girly hobby so we did dance camp...yes I think we finally found something she likes. She was a star or well she definitely thought so...lol....needless to say she always found her self out front dancing and talking and her dancing usually wasn't what everyone else was doing...lol. She had fun that's all that matters. We also have been going swimming a lot this summer and she has become quite the water dog. She loves to swim and is getting good at it. She is my Tess and I love her so much!!!

Lastly, I sold my house in Amarillo, FINALLY! It was a long headache but I closed successfully on May 3rd. Although it was what I needed to do and I thought I was ready to do, it was one of the hardest things to do. It opened my wound wide open again. I had to pack up all of our memories into boxes and close the door one last time knowing I would never step foot into the house we started our family and made so many memories in. To walk away from the last place I ever saw my husband. I had to say goodbye. It was heartbreaking, bittersweat, a relief, devestating, and extremely sad. So many emotions have consumed me since that day. Greif never stops we just seem to deal with it better and then sometimes we dont. Its a long road of healing, I know and I pray that it gets better with time. I have to believe it only gets better. I have struggled in my faith since Randall died until recently I couldnt pray I couldnt hear the word but God is slowly chipping the hardness from my heart and I know he his holding me everyday and I have began to pray. Pray for joy again, joy in our heavenly father for he is all the good, pray for faith, pray for strength, pray for understanding. Just to beable to Pray to hear the word again. Each day is a stepping stone towards healing and towards living our new journey.

I write to share with all that I love, and who I know. Not to recieve sympathy but to share love and thankfullness. A way for me to say thank you to everyone for being apart of my life in some way. You are all beautiful and wonderful. And I thank you. Until next time....Take care and know I love ya!

Tiffany

The Move

So we finally moved to Lovington. I wish I would of took a picture the day we pulled out because we looked like the Beverly hillbillies. We were packed down solid. And how I was able to fit all we brought into one bedroom for the time being is a miracle. When I was packing it didn't seem like that much until I loaded it into the uhaul. Good gosh almighty us girls sure do have a lot. So anyways, we are here and adjusting. The girls are finally getting over their sicknesses thank goodness and we are figuring out our new lifestyle. I will say I do have a new found respect for stay at home mommies this is definitely a full time job and a lot harder than your 8-5 job but it is so worth it. We have stayed in our pj's all morning, played barbies or whatever we could get our hands on. I have watched my 80 year old grandparents play and laugh with the girls which warms my heart more than they will ever know. In fact I believe my Nanny has spoiled Riley rotten already she has become rotten in just five days. I think I might have to put Riley and Nanny in boot camp on the do's and dont's....lol...or put them in time out.  As for Tess her and I have finally got to start bonding more, I have missed spending time with her as well as she has with me. When you work and your a single parent you miss out on lots of little things but now I get to be here. Be here for my girls. I not only believe this was a gift from God but I have said for the past year and three months Randall is still taking care of us. Thank you honey and thank you Jesus for making it possible to be home with my girls. I look forward to the many adventures and fun times ahead, I will keep you posted on what the Roger girls are up to. I pray for everyone to have a wonderful and blessed 2013 full of love, joy, and happiness. We all deserve that! Until next time....all my love...Tiffany

Changes.......

Changes....It seems there has been many changes in my life the past year. Most not wanting or expecting but the latest I am excited about. I will be moving home (Lovington) in two weeks. It doesn't matter how old we get we still need home, we still need our mommas and our family. So with that being said, Me, Tess and Riley will be continuing our new adventure in Lovington. With this move I will get to stay at home with my kids and actually raise them instead of daycare raising them, although I am very thankful and blessed for Learning Depot they have been amazing to me and my family for the past 3 1/2 years. I will also be going back to school to finally yes finally finish my degree....thank God! I am looking forward to this change. Even though I am very excited I know this change has broken a lot of hearts and I am so sorry that is has. Just remember we love you all and even though we will be in a different town this will always be our Home a place where our (The Rogers) started our family and the many memories I will cherish a lifetime. Friendships I will carry forever and my family here that will always be apart of my life and will love forever. And you better believe we will be back all the time.

So onto the not so serious I do have quite the funny story for you all. An attempted mommy daughter time. Lets just say we will definitely have to wait another year for this time together again. So Riley was with her other momma (Jessica) for the afternoon so I could have time with miss Tess, I thought it would be fun to go get our nails painted together yes I love getting pampered and Tess has been all about the princess stuff, and oh momma that is beautiful and and the girly stuff. So off we go, we arrive at the nail place and she thinks wow to cool and I am thinking yes this is going to be so much fun. We pick our colors and set down me in one chair and her next to me, I should of known...the painting process begins, she keeps asking whats that? What are you doing? The lady obviously doesn't have children or is not a big fan of them because she didn't have much patience. After she finishes with Tess I still have a little ways to go so they give Tess some candy and turn on cartoons for her, with in a few minutes I look over and Tess is choking on her candy I get up run over there thinking crap I don't know how to do the hind lick maneuver so I proceed to stick my finger in her mouth but don't feel the candy and as I am patting her on the back she begins to puke on the floor this finger and puking process happens two more times and in the background you could here all kinds of oriental language going on, I could only imagine what they were saying, like what the heck its 20 minutes til closing I just swept the floor and now I got puke on it, or she just stuck her half wet nail in her daughters throat and I just painted that, crap now I have to start over, and so on. In the meanwhile we are successful on getting the candy loose, and Tess goes about her business like nothing ever happened and everyone is staring at me like lady are you going to clean that puke up. Like I said it will be awhile before we have that adventure again. Sheeese....

Miss Riley, well lets just say she is one happy rolly polly. That girls eats all the time. We went to the doctor last week and she weighs 24 pounds at 10 months old. She never stops eating and to top it off I swear she makes love to her food...lol...whenever she eats she moans to it. Its the funniest thing ever and its not just every once in a while its every time she eats. A girl after my own heart, she likes her food like her momma does...lol.

Life is never a dull moment with kids, everyday is an adventure of its own. I would not change it for the world, puke, love making to our food, and all. Life is good!

I want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas full of love and laughter....Love you all, Tiffany!


Changes...."All our dreams can come true- if we have the courage to pursue them." -Walt Disney
Changes...."Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change." - Jim Rohn
Changes...."The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live." - Flora Whittmore

The dating scene....

Ok my friends....I am back in the saddle again. I am adventuring out to start dating again. Oh boy oh boy, so far its been unsuccessful and to be honest don't like it. I feel like am on a job interview...so "so and so" what to you like to do, what do you do for a living, what are your strengths and weakness....next....Lord help me. It is definitely a different world out there. Like for instance last night I went to the Ranch Rodeo because my good friends were cooking for it and ask me to come hang out so sure sounds like fun. By the end of the evening I had a bouncer ask me to the movies, ummm no, and a 23 year old hitting on me and with him I felt like a cougar. I was waiting for him to bust out and sing "Me and Mrs. Jones", LOL. Wow its definitely going to be an adventure. I will keep y'all posted on that.

As for us Rogers girls, we all seem to be doing well. Riley was sick all last week and finally by the end of the week she finally had three teeth pop through and on top of that she has become mobile, yes folks she is crawling...yeah...maybe I will get skinny again. Speaking of skinny you know how sexy I felt wearing spanks and granny panties to suck in the love handles that want to vacation around my tummy area. Could you imagine the surprise the guy would get peeling those suckers off....LOL! Ok back to the girls, Miss Tessa has told me twice last week that she went to time out and when I asked her why, she said that her teacher put her there, after about 15 minutes of going in circles about why she went to time out I gave up and said you go girl. She is such a mess. It hit me the other day that my girls are growing up when I was actually having a conversation with my 3 year old it might not of been very productive but we were talking. How time flies by.

So my friends I ask you to keep my in prayer as I enter the dating scene. Lets hope I don't have to kiss to many frogs to find the prince. I  am to tired, I need my easy button. Hope everyone has a fantastic week.

Love to all....
Tiffany

The Rogers Girls' New Journey

November marks a new journey for me and my girls. The past year has been a life of its own full of ups and mostly downs, darkness, SADNESS, and loneliness for Randall. I made it through a year through all the first with out him so on October 16th the day after it was a year since Randall died I woke up and said today is a new day. This starts the new beginning of my new life. Its time for me to move forward to hold on to the love we shared and the memories we made but now its time to start living again. Living for myself and living for my girls. So let me feel you in a little on the first two days of our new journey.

November 1st was your normal busy day at work. Riley was here at the house because she had been sick all week battling fever but Tess went to daycare she soooo needed to go back to school she had to much cabin fever and needed to escape. So I pick my precious little Tess up and head home, my grandparents and mom had been here this week so we came home had supper and it was Rub a dub in the tub time. I put Tess in the bath and proceeded to do things in my room while she played. I suddenly was summoned to the bathroom from this sweet little voice and as I walked in to see Tess standing outside of the tub with a big smile and she said "mommy I Poot" code word for Mommy I pooped in the BATHTUB. How does something that big come out of my sweet beautiful PETITE little girl....seriously what in the world. Needless to say I totally grossed out had to sike myself up to get it out and as I am gloved from head to toe to get this monster of a "poot" out to the tub Tess is telling me look mommy I poot and no no don't touch my poot. I replied "Believe me sister I don't want to touch your poot." Never a dull moment. LOL!!! So gross.

Life is so good no matter what mountain you have to climb. I mentioned in my goodbye letter to Randall a bible verse that was read at his funeral. Thess. 5:18 says "Give thanks in all Circumstances for this is God's will for you." As much as it didn't make sense then it does now. Because God always has a plan for us rather we agree with it or not. I will always give thanks for all my circumstances rather its good or bad because this is God's will for me and my girls and his Love is the greatest of all. So tonight I give thanks for my new journey in life and for the Joy God will reveal to my heart once again.

Goodnight my friends and family....love you all so much!

Tiffany