Ok so its been awhile....

Hello from the Rogers' Girls....Its been a long time since I have blogged. I am sorry I got a little side tracked with my two busy and crazy girls...lol...they are definitely busy. I really thought that I would have at least one calm child, well the joke is on me. :)

Well lets see where do I begin. I left you all off with the move. We moved here December 28th 2012 and have been living with my grandparents and mom for 6 months now, a little longer than expected. But its been good we all have had to make some sacrifices but all in all its been good. The girls are loving it probably because the great grandparents and the Tah Tah are spoiling them rotten. Anyways we been here six months, in that time Riley turned one and finally started walking or should we say running, she jabbers all the time and her favorite thing is to sing. She loves music, my Pee pa sings Amazing grace and she becomes in awe, raises her hands to praise the Lord and starts to sing along. Anytime music plays that girl stops what ever she is doing and becomes mesmerized by the music. She also loves it outside that little stinker stays out there most of the day helping nanny water the flowers or Pee pa work in the yard or whatever she can get into. Oh and her first real word has been ball. She loves to play beach balls, soccer balls, bouncy balls, softballs, hopefully this means she will be my athlete. So Riley in a nutshell is a running, jabbering, ball playing, lawn girl, kind of mess...lol. She is wonderful.

My Tess turned 4 in May she is growing up so fast. She is beautiful, smart, and head strong. She absolutely loves her little sister probably because she can make Riley do whatever she wants and or tricks her to trade toys because she wants what Riley has. She started Pre-School this spring and loved it. She had a great teacher her name was Mrs. Anna but Tess couldn't separate the words and called her Sanna. So every morning she would get excited and tell me "mommy we going to school and see Sanna!" Loved it. We also tried t-ball again this year and I think this was the last year for Tess. I helped coached her team thinking this is going to be great she is a little older this time I get to be there helping its just going to be great...well not so much. We get to the first game, well let me back up I should of known this was not going to happen when I had to fight her on putting on her uniform and instead of wearing her baseball cap she wanted a bow in her hair. See where this is going. So we get there and were walking up, all these little kids carrying there gloves and bats looking like pros and here comes Tessa with her big bow, purse, and Jesse doll. So its obvious she wants nothing to do with tball.  So she goes and sits in the stands while I continue on my mission to coach. During the game I look up to see where she is and my little princess is in the stands painting her finger nails. REALLY! So needless to say she and sports don't get along. After our tball experience I realized I needed to put her in a more girly hobby so we did dance camp...yes I think we finally found something she likes. She was a star or well she definitely thought so...lol....needless to say she always found her self out front dancing and talking and her dancing usually wasn't what everyone else was doing...lol. She had fun that's all that matters. We also have been going swimming a lot this summer and she has become quite the water dog. She loves to swim and is getting good at it. She is my Tess and I love her so much!!!

Lastly, I sold my house in Amarillo, FINALLY! It was a long headache but I closed successfully on May 3rd. Although it was what I needed to do and I thought I was ready to do, it was one of the hardest things to do. It opened my wound wide open again. I had to pack up all of our memories into boxes and close the door one last time knowing I would never step foot into the house we started our family and made so many memories in. To walk away from the last place I ever saw my husband. I had to say goodbye. It was heartbreaking, bittersweat, a relief, devestating, and extremely sad. So many emotions have consumed me since that day. Greif never stops we just seem to deal with it better and then sometimes we dont. Its a long road of healing, I know and I pray that it gets better with time. I have to believe it only gets better. I have struggled in my faith since Randall died until recently I couldnt pray I couldnt hear the word but God is slowly chipping the hardness from my heart and I know he his holding me everyday and I have began to pray. Pray for joy again, joy in our heavenly father for he is all the good, pray for faith, pray for strength, pray for understanding. Just to beable to Pray to hear the word again. Each day is a stepping stone towards healing and towards living our new journey.

I write to share with all that I love, and who I know. Not to recieve sympathy but to share love and thankfullness. A way for me to say thank you to everyone for being apart of my life in some way. You are all beautiful and wonderful. And I thank you. Until next time....Take care and know I love ya!

Tiffany

The Move

So we finally moved to Lovington. I wish I would of took a picture the day we pulled out because we looked like the Beverly hillbillies. We were packed down solid. And how I was able to fit all we brought into one bedroom for the time being is a miracle. When I was packing it didn't seem like that much until I loaded it into the uhaul. Good gosh almighty us girls sure do have a lot. So anyways, we are here and adjusting. The girls are finally getting over their sicknesses thank goodness and we are figuring out our new lifestyle. I will say I do have a new found respect for stay at home mommies this is definitely a full time job and a lot harder than your 8-5 job but it is so worth it. We have stayed in our pj's all morning, played barbies or whatever we could get our hands on. I have watched my 80 year old grandparents play and laugh with the girls which warms my heart more than they will ever know. In fact I believe my Nanny has spoiled Riley rotten already she has become rotten in just five days. I think I might have to put Riley and Nanny in boot camp on the do's and dont's....lol...or put them in time out.  As for Tess her and I have finally got to start bonding more, I have missed spending time with her as well as she has with me. When you work and your a single parent you miss out on lots of little things but now I get to be here. Be here for my girls. I not only believe this was a gift from God but I have said for the past year and three months Randall is still taking care of us. Thank you honey and thank you Jesus for making it possible to be home with my girls. I look forward to the many adventures and fun times ahead, I will keep you posted on what the Roger girls are up to. I pray for everyone to have a wonderful and blessed 2013 full of love, joy, and happiness. We all deserve that! Until next time....all my love...Tiffany